I lost a loved one recently.
I found my way through the very first wave of grieving. Not easy. Using my favorite methods of self-reflection and awareness: I made it through!
Now comes the second wave. Intense. Misleading. Wave after wave of gibberish emotions. Lost in translation. I am running on 50% energy. Exhausting.
So I set priorities day after day, one day at a time. Patience, resilience, I know it will get better: time cures everything. One step at a time.
Yet. Darn. Mille milliards de mille sabord! “Why does it have to be so painful?”, I ask myself. No one answers. Well I didn’t really want an answer anyway.
I debatted whether I wanted to share these reflections on my blog. Maybe it shows I am weak, maybe it will upset people, maybe they will laugh at me, maybe they will stop reading and never come again.
And yet, maybe one person will stay. One person will find something in this blog post that helps them deal with their own sorrow or stress or conundrum today. Then it is all worth it.
Because helping you helps me too.