I am sitting here in this workshop, struggling with attention, motivation…why am I here in the first place? I remember preparing for this opportunity, being really excited about my focus for this workshop. 4 hours in, I clearly forgot what my intention was, or am I slowly realizing that my objective wasn’t the right one?
Does this ring a bell? Have you ever been caught in this situation?
I am discovering a new way of looking at a possible outcome. The journey is as important as the destination. Participating is what matters. Explore before you focus. That’s it, explore, be curious, let the brainstorm come to you… The moment I realized exploration was going to be the name of my game this week, my energy started to creep up, ramp up, shoot up.
There is a pattern here. When I am faced with uncertainty of any kind, my knee-jerk reaction is to look for a specific sharp objective and focus more…and eventually fail because I don’t know what to look for. This time I noticed my initial reaction. And I knew I needed to do something different, but what? And how? I wrestled with my own discomfort for another few hours. The day came to a close, we all headed to the metro station with the promise of a pleasant dinner.
Bingo! Eureka! Let go. Let go? Yes, let go!
Forget about focus, go broad. Stop searching, start observing. Contemplate, listen, follow your interest and your curiosity without limiting yourself about whether it has a clear immediate use. I am now 3 hours into the second day, having fun, listening, tuning into what people say and show. I am fully engaged. I don’t know what I will get in the end but I know it will be good. I let go and want to be curious, and it feels good.
How often do you let go and allow yourself to be curious?